Omg Nami!

Watched Sweet Room and dear Lord Nami!! Although he looked slightly.... not saying odd but.... serious. I know it wasn't an LMAO type of thing but he usually has that "spark" we all so love...... hmmm.

Morning~

I should update more shouldn't I? Yup....

Today we're planning to go take a look what Kaivarin Kanuuna, a fleamarket in the center(ish) of Helsinki has to offer. It's not like we have any extra money but it's fun to just go dig around a bit :) also we might go to Roihuvuori to check out their blooming cherrytrees <3 I did ask Minna to come along but I haven't heard from her since the weekend so I guess that's a no then?

Went for a look at Gina Tricot earlier this week and I saw the coolest t-shirt with a skully sailor in it!! The shirt didn't cost much, 9,90€, but it's the color....that plotchy grey that I ABSOLUTELY hate u__u It's such a cute shirt but I'm not sure I like it enough to stand the color ._.

Also, I need new shoes for the summer. My beloved white, buckled, pointy sneakers are literally crumbling from the sole ;______; how cruel can world be? And I've bought them back in 2007 so I'm shitting bricks if I happen to ever find a new white pair of those!

Also, Noora dyed my hair <3 I'm going for silver which is H-A-R-D!! The color is quite okay now, but since my hair is so dry it's a little granny-purle in the driest parts XD I'm confident that it'll fade after a couple of washes *fingers crossed*

Well, a little sleep can't hurt, so laters~

<3

Can you hear it?

And after a while I could even hear an owl!! Here! Time to go to sleep now as we might get some visitors later today (Minna and Tuija <3).

Oh yeah, only a couple of days 'til exist+trace *____*v

Everyday it's just a repetition of the previous one lately. What is the meaning of a life like this?

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We're here~

I wanna FLY away.

Remember me bitching about the fact that we always just pick up or bid farewell to someone at the airport? Well finally it's our turn to fly <3 we're "only" going to Rovaniemi to visit Miia for 5 days but it's quite good as I realized after someone told me that they've NEVER been to Rovaniemi. I guess I've just gotten used to the city after living there and still visiting quite often, should be grateful for things like this and the fact that we're going by plane rather than train this time! Last night one train to the North had been 6 hours late!! Can you believe it? Unforgivable.

Bought a twopack of movies the day before yesterday: '28 days later' and '28 weeks later'. The first was as awesome as ever (and it's not bad that Cillian Murphy is in it either ;D) but at least I failed to notice the importance of the latter movie. Even for me who loves blood and gore it seemed that the movie was not much of anything else than those. Even the guy that plays Dahmer in 'Dahmer' didn't fire me up at all (even though he certainly was.... smoking hot at his last scene XD pardon my lame joke if you've seen the scene) and I adore him u_u well, I've wanted to see it and buy the first one so I guess it's OK.

It seems our flight got just delayed for 15mins so I still have time to read a bit of the 3rd Harry Potter~

My girls are coming back!! <3

28.04.2010 Helsinki / Tavastia

<3

Happy Vday~

Happy Birthday man!!

It's Linkin Park-day today, so everyone should dust off their 'Hybrid Theory'-albums and listen to some musik!!

Greetings from Tuesday 8,D

Had a fun party for three ;D

End of an era as they say.

So..... broke up with a friend who got me to move to Espoo. Things haven't been too brilliant with her lately but....

We met at the line waiting to meet Anti Feminism and Hagakure back in January 2007 and kept in touch even though we lived up in Rovaniemi and she lived here, met when we came here for gigs and spent an amazingly fun week in the summer of 2007 when we came to see Dir en grey first in Ankkarock and then in Sweden and spent the in-between-time with here...

We (I say we because I'm talking for both me and Noora) haven't actually had that many friendfriends over the years ('cos of some shit in the past = trust issues later) and I really thought we'd be friends for life even though that sounds korny as hell.

So, thanks to her, we move down here and for a while it seemed like everything would be peachy but yeah.. enter some happenings and skeptic-me and there we go. Oh yeah, and we got other friends besides her as well! Heli started to visit us and we met Laku in August 2008 (in the line waiting for Kagrra, where Sanna wasn't ready to come'cos "she didn't know anything by them, duh") and in all honesty, I think that was the last nail on the coffin.

Without telling all the things here this might not sound like such a serious matter but after over a year off the so called on-off-treatment from her part just breaks me and she doesn't even care. Like.... both Laku and Heli know more of this matter (as well as some others) but say that Heli would be coming over for the weekend. Sanna would a) not make any contact for the said time or b) try to hang out all the time. Oh yeah, and she hates Heli so..... we still haven't really figured out why she hates her though... this is one major reason why I'd prefer to befriend guys cos they say what they think and don't bitch about it to others instead of the person it concerns. (Even though everyone I know says that they like to say how the thing is rather thankeep it a secret but I onlyknowone person that follows this rule almost every time and I KNOW I don't do that myself either even though I say so....)

So, we lend her 40€ in the beginning of January cos she didn't have any money, and she has had our camera for the past year (give or take) cos we loaned it to her when she went to China and while there, the camera broke. It was working like always the week before and suddenly it supposedly "just didn't work anymore" when segot it.... okay, so she's been saying she'll get it fixed or she'll pay for it (it was only a year old..) but she's done jackshit about it the whole time. Last time Heli was here I had some minor argument over the fact that she hates her and after that she hasn't talked to me(or Noora for that matter) AT ALL. Again, without going to the details, I've been trying to get her to return the camera but she didn't answer to textmessages, on FB or IG and it was like I'd bea ghost trying to contact the living without knowing I'm dead.

I sent her one last txt saying something like if she at least could return the 40€ (if our friendship was in her opinion over) cos we didn't have any money in the end of Jan and we needed to pay some bills as well (side note: she's that kind of a person who lends money but expects it back the day before if you know what I mean) and I also wrote her a private message on FB saying something about some things in a "I'm so pissed at you right now but I'm trying my hardest not to show it"-manner. So after a day I go check out my bank balance (since we needed to go to the shop and I wasn't really sure how much money I had left) and I have this extra 40€ there. At first I thought it was from my dad but after checking the name, Sanna. So I don'tknow if it's just me and my paranoid mind but doesn't that sound like a "This is it biatch, don't contact me ever again"-message without words? Cos I know her and how she thinks and.....

Neithe ro f us have heard about her since. I've been so pissed about this that defriended her from my FB and IG but just today Noora told me she had updated her status that she had gotten in to a school she applied (well, good luck and fuck that) and Noora asked if she'd gotten in but she has repliied to her other friend and totally ignored Noora! This just pisses me off even more and... SHIT!!!!! I'm just so over this drama that I want my stuff from her (inc. the camera or money for it) and we don't ever ever ever have to even see each other. She was deaddrunk in the evening party of Tsukicon and while glingin to me the whole night (she's said that I'ma better friend than Noora cos apparently it makes Noora a bad friend that if we're going somewhere with more than her and Noora is trying to talk to our other friends and I get stuck with her = in her mind I wanna be with her andN doesn't...... even though I tried to hide from her with Minna she kept crying on and on about how we're her only friends besides her husband......... Yeah? Well, in my opinion real friends don't treat each others like this.

I had something else as wellbut we need to go get Minna from Morticia and we're going to have a Guitar Hero-party tonight XD

So..... in conclusion, so long Nana Stardust. (we're thru and I don't know if it'd help even though you'd tried to patch things up so.... maybe better not to try.

<3

Picked up some bday-cards and... A GEM!!

It was Lindas 22nd birthday last week and our bigsis turned 27 today!
So... we went to pick up cards for them and I found this amazing card XD didn't buy it yet though, we got a card with a unicorn and helluva lot glitter to Linda and one with Charlie and Woodstock laying on his head for Miia heehee~

Tomorrow we're going to pick Minna up from her work and come back home and hang around and play some Guitar Hero XD nice to see someone else than only Noora for a change (love ya)!

After maybe 10 years~

After waking up in a killer hunger and realizing that there's no food in the entire apartment and that going out in that stupid blizzard really isn't an option this early I needed to dig in to the survivor pack we still haven't sent to Laku in Osaka.

So rasberry-flavored porridge it is :D

StupidFox *_____*

モイモ～イ！！

On a happier note~

ABS + new PV = eternal love



Words can't describe how insanely happy this made me!! ありがとう!!

*sigh*

Lately everything has been on a blah-mode yet again. Nothing I can do interests and everything I can't is beyond interesting........

People don't seem to care being in contact with me and if I do hear about someone it just seems to piss me off royally even though it might not be something to get biased about. Even people who really don't annoy me start to annoy me because I read too much in to text messages, the lack of them or the way people talk to me..... I've come to think it's just because I think that everyones lives revolve around me. Basically because of that.

It hasn't been this bad for a while now so I guess it was to be expected, right? (My "for a while" meaning something like a few weeks mind you.)

I'm reading this guys blog (http://iselfharm.blogspot.com/) and it really made me think about myself, way too much for my liking actually... See his going to a shrink at one point (because of his self harming and while there realizes some pretty important things) and I just can't help but to think about my own way of seeing people and the way everyone treats/looks/talks about/to me.

I've been reading my old xanga from way back (starting from the early 2004 I think) and it isn't helping my current mood that I've been so melancholy back then as well. I don’t know if I should really go talk to someone about my dragging mood and the general down look I have on life, would it help? It just sucks that even though I do have good days too I tend to forget then in the blink of an eye and just dwell in the negative things.


Here's a little copy+pasteing, see what I mean?

March 2006.
As you might have guessed (if you read this whole thing) I'm feeling a bit down.. It seems to be my general mood these days.. I hate this 'cos I really don't know why I am like this all the fucking time ._." I only seem to listen to mellow, melancholic music and all those sad news kinda take the light off my good news as well…

December 2005.
Why is everything so boring? I need a life..

November 2005.
10 YEARS AGO I:
was 9 years old, just started 3rd grade and my English-lessons, I was the kid everyone kinda.. picked on for one reason or another. liked to read books (I usually went to the library, borrow some books and walked home ~1km reading the first book on the way)

5 YEARS AGO I:
was 14, started junior highschool a year, had stopped studying German, hated my best friend for being a bitch, all heavy metal, had had my first big crush on this "kewl" skater boy who was in my class, hoped for a better life, got my first piercing, lost a friend but got her back. was still being picked on (mostly by these "cool" girls who didn't understand why guys liked my company.. who says guys and girls can't be JUST friends?)

1 YEAR AGO I:
was 18, thought life'd get better when I turn 18; got my drivers license, got to go to bars etc. but to tell the truth, nothing changed that much. Had lost contact with "my best friend" and still hated her guts, was way too deep in JROCK and dreamed about gigs and trip to Japan, went to my first real concert: KoRn

YESTERDAY I:
was at work as usual, got mad at my employee, felt strangely.. hollow at night and didn't get sleep. thought about Mucc and how I'd really like to see them again. was eagerly waiting for today because wee came to Rovaniemi to visit our big sister Miia ^^;

July 2005
So, I am alive after all. I noticed that no-one is really interested whether I'm writing or not…

Ice ice baby....

Waking up with a frozen hand and after sleeping with 3 heavy blankets on isn't too much fun I tell ya!!

Cute naa~

Time for a little nap

Woke up super early today!

Watched Toy Story but now my head is aching so the title says it all.

Oh yeah. 'The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus' was amazing *___* if I would have to describe it with just one word, it'd be 'Dali'. Heath Ledger was fantastic and I don't think they could've picked 3 more suitable actors to finish the story than Jude Law, Johnny Depp and Colin Farrel. I'm still laughing at Johnny, Jude is such a perfect sleazeball and Colin the bad boy!

Also 'Sherlock Holmes' was fabulous even though I waited nothing less than that :) and Jude Law as Watson!! The 'stache <3 and Robert Downey Jr. as the man himself.... I can see that he put a lot of his own experience to his acting (mainly the drinking part....) but I do like my men a little on the loopy side, heh.

Well. "To the infinity and beyond!"

Come to Finland?

One little gig for us Finns too? Pretty please...

Rise against.

Long time no nothing, sorry about that u_u

Nothing much has happened since my unexpected little hiatus... Expect a few things.

Our internet was down for good 3 months since neither our provider nor our landlord "knew" anything about it and no one bothered to offer any frikkin help....

Sirian stayed at our place the whole of December since she got to move in to her new apartment in the beginning of this month.

And we got a Nintendo Wii as a Xmas present, bought Guitar Hero: Metallica for it and I've now played thru all the songs ^^"

Also I think we're fighting with Sanna (again, big surprise there huh?) or at least she is *sigh* dunno what to do with her anymore and this whole situation irks me to no end because (as I've said it before and propably will do so again in the future) it is NOT always our job to make everything better and even this time we don't even really know what the fuck this is all about!! I'm just seriously getting t ired of this shit... all the time.

Hmm... what else? Miia and Jarno bought a new house up at Rovaniemi and they'll be moving there soon. I want to move away from this rathole of an apartment! Once again our rent is rising, it's the second time since we moved here and when another 15€ may not sound so bad.... yup. So maybe we'll start looking for a cheaper and better apartment even thoug it'll also mean a smaller one.

Tomorrow we're going to take Sirian to the movies! It's SuperPäivät so we're going to see the Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus and after that the premiere of Sherlock Holmes. Oh the decadence of spending~

Well, I'll leave you with that fine gentleman up there and head to catch some z's.